First steps to healing…

IN my last post about my CIN issue, I'd mentioned that my doctors had basically advised me wait it out until my next pap smear rolled around in 6 months time. But, as per my normal “healing” methods – I knew I could be doing something. As you may have seen in my “About me” section, I am a firm believer in the power of thought and how we attract things into our lives.

New to Sydney, my first stop was to find a Kinesiologist so I could delve deeper and find out why this “dis-ease” had come into my life, or my cervix as it were. What lessons did I need to hurry up and learn so that my reproductive organs get back into its positive life-creating energy?! I have used kinesiologists for about 10 years and find the method extremely effective and profound in working out whats going on in my life.

I have had lower back pain for about 4 years, so I knew that my sacral chakra was in need of some serious work – back pain was one thing, but the thought of cancer seemed to be the wake-up call I certainly needed to really focus on this area.

• Sacral Chakra is the second out of the seven chakras, it is orange in colour and found between the belly button and lower abdomen. The physical issues it relates to include low back pain, pelvic and reproductive organ issues, libido, and urinary problems. The emotion areas for Sacral Chakra include money, sexuality, creativity, honour in relationships, ability to enjoy and passion.

Along with Kinesiology, I had Reiki and holistic counselling, as well as read many books on the mind-body-spirit connection. I also wrote a lot in my journal. Through the next six months or so I tried to become more aware of my thoughts and how they may be affecting me.

Through journaling and paying attention to my thoughts I realised I was becoming more and more self-critical. I have always been great at negatively judging myself (did i just judge myself again about judging myself?!!), but my poor little mind was working overtime with negative thought-patterns that basically came down to: I’m not worthy, I’m not good enough.

So, after this realisation I decided to focus on that. I had some kinesiology sessions, Reiki healings and tried the beautiful Louise Hay’s affirmations and daily CD to work towards viewing myself in the way that God does… perfect just the way I am.

Therefore, my simple affirmation was: “I love and approve of myself.”

I incorporated my affirmations into my time when I was not having to focus on much.. so when I was walking to the shops, or sitting on the bus or trying to fall asleep. Along with saying it I tried to conjure up that excited feeling in my tummy and my chest.. real love for myself.

I also put one of my favourite pictures of myself as a 2-3 year old on my fridge – honestly, with my chubby tanned cheeks, huge happy smile and stripy sun bleached tresses… who couldn’t love that little girl. I kept reminding myself that that gorgeous vivacious cherub was actually me. (Picture in the blog is me on my first day of school - way cute!)